With the impending excitement I should have been planning to buy a cake, looking for colourful balloons to decorate our house and inviting close family around to celebrate the moment.
Over the 12 months that led up to this we should have been attending all the classes that any new parent would sign up to. Baby sensory, baby massage - you name it I would have probably have signed up for all of them.
My husband and I should have been basking in the glory of being new parents cooing over every little smile, laugh and first step.
Instead, sadly, for us this just wasn’t meant to be.
While Number 10 Downing Street was busy hosting alleged lockdown parties, I was struggling to come to terms with a second heartbreaking miscarriage.
All I wanted to do was to go and see my mum for a hug and get that desperate reassurance that everything was going to be ok.
I couldn’t - we were in lockdown.
I just needed to see my best friend for a shoulder to cry on.
I couldn’t - we were repeatedly told that we have to follow the rules that were set out for all of us without exception.
Rules were rules.
I was left feeling isolated, alone and unable to come to terms with what had just happened to me as my dreams were flushed away.
Meanwhile, those who should know better, including the Prime Minister himself, were gathering in the garden at a time when the rest of the country were making their own personal sacrifices to protect other people.
The Prime Minister insisted he believed it had been a “work event” and Downing Street said he had never been sent an email encouraging staff to bring a bottle and “make the most of the lovely weather”.
But his apology - or lack thereof - brings little comfort to so many of us who have had to endure the heartbreak of hardship during lockdown.
There is a real sense of growing public anger as more revelations work their way out of the woodwork.
As if that wasn’t enough, Downing Street was forced to apologise to Buckingham Palace after it emerged parties were held in Number 10 the day before the Duke of Edinburgh’s funeral last year.
It is hard to forget that haunting image of the Queen sitting in solitude - away from the rest of her family - as she bid a final farewell to her husband and companion of more than 70 years.
Descriptions of staff drinking and dancing into the night jarred with images of the monarch mourning her husband alone, a week after his death in April 2021.
Duty bound and following the rules like everyone else - well unless you’re in Downing Street it would appear.
There is only so long that the apologies can continue and, truth be told, the damage has already been done.
How can the Government even expect to have any confidence in the public if, heaven forbid, it should ever have to implement any additional Covid rules again?
Surely now the party is finally over once and for all Prime Minister?
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