Emily Ranoble: ‘Heartbreak of delayed surgery’

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Two generations of women on the maternal side of Birstall 26-year-old Emily Ranoble’s family have been affected by breast cancer.

She is due to have radical surgery to stop her developing the disease and is writing a weekly blog each Monday in the YEP.

Last week I wrote ‘today is the day I have my operation’.

Emily Ranoble, from Birstall, is set to undergo radical surgery as she is at high risk of developing breast cancer. Picture by James Hardisty.

Emily Ranoble, from Birstall, is set to undergo radical surgery as she is at high risk of developing breast cancer. Picture by James Hardisty.

I’m really disappointed that this was not the case as my operation was cancelled due to a bed shortage.

Over the past few weeks I’ve struggled to define how I’ve felt, but I know exactly how I feel now, and that is totally deflated.

Since being given the date, I have been preparing for it all to happen on April 13. That involved mental preparation so that I was at ease with everything, as well as taking practical steps, like creating an action plan for work and arranging for my wife’s mum to come up from Hertfordshire for a week so that she could help out. I now can’t help but feel that was all such a waste.

I think that the worst part is that I now feel like I’ve gone backwards. I feel that I’m now in a worse position than I was three weeks ago.

Now not only have I not had the operation, I don’t even have a date. It is just back to waiting and feeling like everything is on hold. I’m not angry, I’m just frustrated, and most of all I just feel utterly disheartened.

I’m also worried that when I do get offered a new date I will struggle to get myself psyched up for it, because at the back of my mind I am fearful that this will happen again.

I am doing my best to get back to my usual positive self. Hopefully by next week I will have a new date and will feel like I am moving in the right direction again.

Alexandra Shulman. PIC: PA

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